Sensing the Unseen

In these past few months, I have been introspective about my life and experiences. I feel it is essential to analyze and make sure we learn from not only our own life experiences but from others’ as well.

I accept that I am a highly sensitive human being. One of the caveats of being as such is the ability to feel and sense energy from others. I used to think that maybe I was overthinking or oversensing things unsaid and unspoken from others. For example, walking past people in environments such as work or other enclosed spaces such as malls, restaurants and office buildings, I feel energy. It can sound like nonsense but, to me, it isn’t. I can sense energy from other people, when they behave as if they are superior to me, totally dismiss my entire being as meaning nothing or pretending as if I do not matter.

When I walk through the various schools that I need to work in and teach classes in, I understand that I am looked down upon. It is through the other adults’ demeanor, their facial expressions, the energy and aura that surrounds them. I can tell that some of them feel I am nothing, nobody, something that is inferior to them. Its prevalence is something that I accept as existing and do not let enter my core being and make me feel horrible. Human beings love to always be better than others and if we pay attention closely, we can observe that this does not even have to take place using words or voice. It is all unseen. Without sound. Without talking. Just in the invisible communicative lines of energy that is exuded from the human, emotional, mental and spiritual psyche.

These types of silent interactions and observations transcend the boundary of culture, ethnicity and nationality. I really want humans to understand this. There is so much time spent on magnifying the differences in how people look, their weight, their features, their skin color, etc. But if you peel past these outer and exterior factors, you will observe how flawed and downright shitty humanity can be.

I do my own research. I speak to others who identify as highly sensitive people like me. I check my suspicions with others even about the same people we may know just to make sure I am not the one who is tripping out or overthinking things.

My point in writing this out is to just remind everyone that everything is not necessarily in your head. Sometimes, that dismissive and curt energy you feel from others can be true and real. It is imperative that you stay grounded in who you are as a human being and know who you are from the inside out. There are a myriad of elements and factors in this world that are there to intentionally attack your psyche, self esteem and make you feel as if you are worth a nugget of poop on the bottom of the shoe.

It is possible to feel proud of who we are and how far we have come AND continue to keep growing and developing ourselves. No human on this Earth is perfect and anyone who tries to tell you that they are someone else is are absolutely playing you for a fool.

Don’t let others bully you into submission. You stand up for yourself when needed. Despite what others may think or feel, we are not put on this Earth just to be used and abused by other people and don’t let folks tell you otherwise.

These are my thoughts and messages I want to share with you, and I hope this can be helpful to someone out there.

Maria Mocha